Saturday, November 21, 2009
Dr. Teter also gave mommy some giant food called T/D that will fit in my kong so I can play with it some more. I love that thing!
I will work on being better about posting. Mommy has two jobs and is looking for a third one that will boost her client base at the second job and is also wanting to go back to school on top of it all so I don't get to use the computer as much as I would like. Hope she still has time for me, but I know she will. She loves me very much (she sat on the floor with me the whole time we were at the vet, and not all mommies do that).
Anyway, I hope you all have a great Thanksgiving. Please let me know what you're thankful for.
I'm thankful for my mommy, daddy, my human boy, my brother Smokey, and for the cancer being gone. It's going to be a great howliday season and I'm happy to have all of you in my life too!
Hugs and Drool,
Saturday, September 12, 2009
I have much to tell you tonight. Please visit http://www.caninecancerawareness.org/ to see my story. Any purchase you make creates funds that are donated to canine cancer research. My picture is added now as a face of courage! How awesome?!?
Mom had to have an MRI recently for headaches and said she was scared of being in the MRI tube. She said that she thought of me and my scary experience with cancer and being in a new place and having surgery and that my strength and courage got her through it. We all have that inner strength, we just have to find the source and draw from it. For her, it was me. I'm fortunate to have a mommy who truly cares so deeply for me. I love her too.
My foster mommy, Jan, gave my mom a bracelet that describes what cancer cannot do. Here is a picture and the thoughtful words that it says.
It says that cancer cannot: corrode faith - shatter hope - destory peace - silence courage- invade the soul - steal life - conquer the spirit - cripple love - kill friendship - suppress memories
It's all true. Whether you're a canine or a human, cancer cannot steal these things from you. Maybe in the short term, but not forever.
Last, but not least, we all know, us sibes love having our tummies scritched. I am no exception to that rule. I tend to roll over long enough to get the scritches and then am non my way so mom can't get any pictures of it. HOWEVER, she was sneaky and got me when daddy was scritching my tummy and I was in such a trance because it felt so good that I couldn't get up and run. She snapped and snapped pictures. Here is the evidence.
I must say that it felt really good, although I am not sure about having this pose for all to see. I don't really mind though because my daddy gives me the bestest tummy scritches in the world and I love him!
Hope you all get many scritches this weekend!
By the way, I'm working on a contest where someone will choose the best fitting new tail for me. Watch for the rules, guidelines, and how to win a bag of Happy Hearts and a special autographed picture of me. It will be a lot of fun and I hope you all participate.
Hugs and drool,
Saturday, September 05, 2009
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Yesterday I got to see my friend Denise. She came over to visit mom and dad and she fawned all over me. She says I look cute and she gave me a kiss on my forehead. She is a husky mom too, but Bandit and I don't really get along so well.
Tomorrow mom and dad go back to work and Chauncey goes back to school, so I'm gonna try to get Smokey to play.
Mom had a mygrane today so she was in bed a lot. I went upstairs and crawled in bed with her to keep her company. We snuggled a lot and I licked her salty tears because her head was hurting so much that she was crying. I know how it feels to feel icky, so I was happy to be there for her and she told me I was a sweet baby boy.
Nothing else new here, just growing furs and healing.
Talk to you all soon and I hope you have a great week!
Hugs and drool,
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Friday, August 21, 2009
Today she had to go get a shot for her allergies. Now she's really sleepy and said her right butt hurts. I know what that is like, so I'm being extra good for her.
Holly's mommy and daddy had to drive to Sioux City for her daddy's mom's surgery. I know that sounded confusing, it's Jan's mother in law. Anyway, things didn't go very well this last Wednesday when they did the first surgery, so they have been driving up there a lot to check in on her. Please cross your paws and send sibe vibes to them (I hope those work for humans).
Well, mommy says she'll be getting some pictures of me up soon, so be ready cuz I'm feeling pretty photogenic. This not having a tail is kinda cool. I'm streamlined, I don't knock things over with it anymore, and mom and dad treat me extra special. I think I'm gonna milk it for awhile longer. I love this extra attention.
I hope you all have a great weekend!
Hugs and drool,
Saturday, August 15, 2009
We'll be going in this Wednesday for the stitches to come out and to get a check up and then we go every three months for check ups and every six months for a chest x-ray and after two years of that, we can hopefully still be tumor and cancer free!
Dr. Siva is an angel and he saved my sweet Kelsey from that awful disease. I can't tell you how good it feels to finally be able to take a breath again! It's been a long two months (worst two of my life).
Finally, we're healthy and Kelsey is a true cancer survivor. I'm very proud of him and I draw strength from how strong he is. He's been through a lot and he's still got the fight to survive in him.
Thank you all again. We'll deal with not having a tail as long as we still have him in our lives and can love him. I won't ever take another day for granted.
All my love to you all!
Cody and Kelsey and the rest of the gang
Hey, did you notice that something is missing from behind me? I can't find it! I also feel a breeze back there. Wait, my fluff is missing!!!! The pain meds are gone and I'm back in the right frame of mind (whatever that means). I thought I was hawoooocinating before when I looked back there, but even without the pain stuffs, I see the same naked back end.
Anyroo, I am gonna go take a nap and wanted to say hi and let you all know I'm doing pretty good. Mom hasn't cried for a couple of days, so that's a good thing. I even spent some time outside on Thursday with her and dad while they swam. They haven't let me get back in my pool yet though. Mom says something about stitches so I guess I'll be patient and go in there next week if they get it out for me.
Hope you are all doing grrreat!
Hugs and drool,
Kel (seriously, if you see my fluffy tail can you send it back to me?)
Friday, August 14, 2009
Kelsey is doing very well and came to the back of the yard last night while Tim and I swam in our pool. He laid down in the shade and seemed quite content. He has been sleeping a little less and we are officially out of pain medicine (was supposed to last 5 days, but I spread it out a little further and made it last 7).
His incision looks really good (if that's possible) and we go to see the vet next Wednesday to get the stitches removed and for a short exam. Hopefully all will be well. He's itching a lot, but doesn't seem to be too bothered by it.
He's a trooper. He is just such a sweet boy and I'm glad that he's still here with me. I don't want to be selfish and I know that eventually he will make the trip to the bridge, I just am hoping for good results and many more years before he goes.
I've decided that he actually looks quite cute without the tail. Who needs all that extra fluff anyway. He's just got a little more character now.
I'll get some new pictures of his shaved fanny soon, so you can see how he is healing. I will take some after the stitches come out.
Hope you all have a great weekend!
Cody (and Kel, bright eyed and no tailed)
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
What in the world is wrong with me?! Last night Kelsey wouldn't let me near him and wouldn't eat. I cried my eyes out! My poor husband must think I've totally lost it. I know Kel just had surgery, is on pain meds, and is sliced from cheek to cheek, I should know I'm not at the top of his priority list right now.
Anyway, I pulled off the fentanyl patch (that was a real treat!) and Kelsey nipped at me and then I felt bad about that and cried. Sheesh, did the wind change direction? I feel another tear coming on.
I am not sure if my nervous breakdown is in full swing or what the deal is. Maybe it's that I am just still angry about the cancer. I don't know.
Tonight, he's doing a lot better. He's more alert and he's eating better (of course, I did make him steamed ground turkey meatballs with egg whites and parsley in them and he also had some steamed broccoli). He's up moving around a bit more and the incision still looks good. I'm the one who's not doing well.
I really hope that you all take a moment and really rub your pets down to see if you feel any abnormal growths. If you do this regularly, you'll know your pet's body and will notice any changes right away so that you can get treatment before it's too late.
I never thought we'd have to go through all of this. We never think it'll be us or our beloved furball.
My Smokey Bear even had a tumor just under his tail above his rectum removed about 6 or 7 months ago. His was small, but I would NEVER have thought to look there for a lump. Turned out that it was benign, but you just never know.
So, STOP reading this and really feel your pet. Neck, inside of legs, tail, just below his/her ears...anywhere. Don't just pet them, really use your finger tips and see if you feel any masses. Some are just lipomas and aren't anything to worry about, but unfortunately, some are bad and need to be checked.
From my heart to yours,
Monday, August 10, 2009
Anyway, he's been resting a lot today. Our sixteen year old son is still home on summer break, so he was able to watch Kelsey all day. He slept most of the day from what Chauncey told me.
So, we're just healing and waiting for results. I am not good with waiting....
Sunday, August 09, 2009
Earlier, I got down on the floor beside his bed where he was resting and just stared at him. I pray that the entire tumor and that the awful cancer is gone. I just can't stand the thought of having to take him back to Colorado and having to leave him there for radiation. I think that would probably be so hard on both of us.
I have been reading a book that the Colorado hospital gave me called "What Now?". It was in my oncology packet. It has some really great information in it about how to deal with a pet that has cancer and what kind of emotions the owner might feel. I thought I was just an emotional mess because I'm an emotional mess, but turns out I was and am feeling the things that everyone feels when their beloved pet has cancer.
Typing this blog has been a great release for me. I know that here I can type out all of my fears and can really just pour my heart out and everyone reading will understand how I feel because you all love your pets as much as I do.
I read somewhere that one in ten pets will be diagnosed with cancer. I had no idea that the numbers were that high. I had no idea that we would be the one in ten.
Anyway, I will close by telling you all that Kelsey had a great day and he was actually a bit playful earlier. I have had a hard time with getting him to eat and bought some organic turkey, sweet potato, and pea moist food for him and literally had to feed him out of my fingers (it was the only way to get his meds in him and with all he's been through, I didn't want to shove them down his throat). He's going to the bathroom on his own, which was one of the concerns.
I think we're going to be ok. I hope so anyway. I will go to bed and say my prayers for his health to be ok and for us to have many more years together.
Love you all,
Saturday, August 08, 2009
He's sleeping like an angel on his puppy bed and I'm just so thankful that he's here. I want to share a few pictures with you. One of them is of Dr. Ramesh Sivacolundhu (Dr. Siva is what he's called at the hospital). He was so kind and let me ask a million questions and spent almost 2 hours with us for a consultation. I couldn't have asked for a better surgeon to be taking care of my sweet boy.
There are a couple of pictures of Kelsey, sans tail. Looks bad now, but I know that it will heal and he's just more special to me. He fought the fight with me and I'm so happy to have him here. However, I guess I can't say he's "bright eyed and bushy tailed" anymore. HA
Friday, August 07, 2009
Ok, now for the important stuff.
The surgery went really well. We went in today at 10:30 for a consult and by 2:00, we were in surgery! The dr called us and said that it went really well and that he was in recovery with the anesthesiologist waking up.
Tail is gone, but he is still here to be with us. That's all I asked for, him to be here and still have a good quality of life.
I've gotten some really great pictures, so as soon as we're home, I'll get them uploaded.
I really can't thank you all enough for the support. It's been an emotional time, but I'm pulling through it with the help of all of you.
I'll blog more as more becomes available.
Hugs to all of you!
The surgeon said Kel did really well during the surgery and he is still waking up. The tail is completely gone, not even a nub. BUT, I for one will just continue to love him more and more.
We're off to dinner right now and I will post more as soon as we return. But for now, it's great news and hopefully will be a full recovery!
Thank you all for your prayers!
Thursday, August 06, 2009
I didn't sleep much today (for only about an hour in the car) and now I'm all stretched out on mommy's bed and getting ready for my big day.
It rained a lot on our way out here, for about an hour, and it was pouring. Mommy was nice enough to get out and walk with me for about 15 minutes in the rain and lightening. I made a #2 and she was so happy that we were done. I know, TMI.
Anyway, I'm off to have sweet puppy dreams and hope for good news tomorrow.
Hugs to all of woo and thank you so much for the kind words. Special note to Summies mummy, thank you for wearing your bracelet in my honor. I told mommy about it and it made her cry. I'm glad you are all here for her and for me.
Hugs and drool,
Wednesday, August 05, 2009
One day long ago I was running loose on the streets in Missouri. I was hungry, thin, scared of people, and alone. I was picked up by a person from the animal shelter and got fed, but I was still scared and the cage was not exactly warm and fuzzy.
After what seemed like forever, a nice woman named Janice came to visit me. She told the man she wanted to adopt me and take me home. He told her that I wasn't neutered, so she'd have to come back. She drove ALL the way back to Omaha, and then returned a few days later. She put me in the car and I was terrified. I didn't understand what was going on. This woman, with the soft voice wanted to pet me. Whoa, why would anyone do that? I couldn't get used to this kindess. She got me to her home and literally had to hold me down so that she could give me this petting and love (things I was not aware existed).
After nearly a year, she met my new mommy, Cody. She let me go spend the night at Cody's house and I got to play with Smokey, Chauncey, and Tim. I was a little nervous. I'd come to know the love that Janice (my firstest mommy) had shown me, but was a little leary of strangers.
My mommy Janice came back to see me and told my new mommy that I could live here with her furever. My mommy Janice cried and cried as she left and I wanted to go with her.
Now, here it is almost 7 years later, and I still have two mommies! Who would have ever thought that I would be lucky enough to have two mommies to love me and care for me and cry for me and fuss over me?! I'm just a dog from the streets.
So, tomorrow, my mommy and my other mommy will take me to Colorado. I know they are both hopeful for me to become healthy and beat this stupid cancer. I'm ready to be rid of it too. You saw the pictures, my tushy is all naked! How embarassing.
Now, I'm going to be stuck with both of them pawing all over me! I guess there are worse things in life though. I could be out on the streets still, or worse.
I'll let you know how it all goes,
Hugs and drool,
Tuesday, August 04, 2009
It is with a heavy heart that I am posting that mommy's friend Jonene lost her sweet Abbot to cancer.
Mommy and Jonene have been talking a lot recently and turns out they go to the same doctors office that we go to. Apparently Abbot has been battling this illness for some time and while he wasn't a blogger, he was a fellow fur friend.
To Abbot I say, there is no more pain. You are free from cancer. No more needles and you are free. Play with all the other kitties and puppies at the bridge and someday, when the time is right, your humes will cross the bridge with you.
To Jonene, Ron, and the kids I say, I'm terribly sorry for your loss. We don't even think about how hard the end will be until it gets here. We live for the moment and the kisses and snuggles. You are truly better people for the love that you gave Abbot while he was here and he will be waiting for you at this side of the bridge.
All of our thoughts and prayers,
Kelsey, Smokey, and Cody
Yup, me going to Colorado four days early!!! The doctor called my mommy today and said they can get us in on Friday instead of Monday. That means we'll be in the car (silver Mazda) on our way to there on Thursday.
Not sure why mom cries about stuff like this and she's keeping a book that she has named Kelsey's Cancer Book. I think that because she can't control the cancer, she's got this book as something she can control. If it were my book, I'd spend less time writin in it and more time slobbering on the pages and making the paper tear. It's a fun sound that paper makes (ask Khady about it, she's into that too).
So, wish us luck and a safe drive. My other mommy, Janice, is bringing her laptop, so if we have a wi-fi connection (whatever that is), hopefully I'll get to blog with any news.
Oh, by the way, mommy said I passed all my tests and that they were all normal. Whew, sure glad I studied.
Hope you're all having a great week and I'll be on the lookout for snow as we get closer to Colorado.
Hugs and drool,
Monday, August 03, 2009
I rode in the car and got to see and smell some new things. I hope I have lots more days of that. I really like going in the car. Today, mommy turned around and said "hey baby schnooks, are we going bye bye again" (baby schnooks?) anyway, I pressed my cold and wet nose on her lips and gave her a great big kiss! She started laughing and my boy (the human boy, Chauncey) he was laughing too. One big wet kiss from me and she loses herself in laughter and giggles.
Dr. Osterholm went out and talked to mommy and my boy while I was in the back getting them pink stitches out. I could tell that mommy had been crying again. She's really worried about me and about making the right choices. She said that Dr. Osterholm helped make her feel better. Dr. O's Shepherd had cancer too and she took her to Colorado, so she knows what we're all going through.
That's all for now, mom's cooking something that smells really good, so I'm gonna go lay at her feet and maybe she'll drop something yummy.
Ta ta for now
Sunday, August 02, 2009
She says I gotta take a c bee c test and a youranalysis and a chem panel. I don't know where the books are to study for these, but hopefully you've got some that I can use.
I'm running out of time too because I have to be there at 5:00 tomorrow, so find your studyin books and help me pass these tests!
Nervous about testing,
PS... I helped my mommy feel a little better. I snuggled with her real good last night and am planning more of the same today. She's smiling and I made her giggle last night too. She's being strong for both of us.
Saturday, August 01, 2009
Friday, July 31, 2009
Mommy has been getting a lot of well wishes, but also a lot of people saying things like "maybe it's time to let go" and "you're crazy for doing so much for a dog" (Whoa, I take offense to that one, I'm not just a dog, I'm a fluffy Siberian Husky). She's also heard that there's a "line" and that by considering all of this surgery, travel, and raydiashun, that she could just get a new dog (again with the DOG thing...I'm a fluffy puppy, a mini hume with fur, a gorgeous fuzzy love bug). Anyway, she's having some hard conversations with people and is spending a lot of her time defending herself. I wish I could just bite some of those people.
Oh, then there's the "can you guarantee it won't come back?" and the "he's gonna go someday" and a lot more. She seems confused and upset. She's been crying a lot again too. How can I make her feel better?
I know she loves me. She tells me so all the time and she's always asking me for kisses (most of the time I give them to her...especially right after drinking a lot of water so I know they're good and sloppy).
I'm not ready to go to the bridge yet. I've got a lot of love left to give and fun to have. I hope she doesn't give up on me. I know it must be hard for her to hear all of the negative talk from everyone. I can tell she's upset and she's sad and she's angry at this disease. She's a mess. I mean seriously, a mess. She's got bags under her eyes that you could park a truck in, she's not sleeping, she's not eating well, she's sad, and she's constantly crying.
Hoping things get better for her and that my bum gets better so we can play and snuggle for a long time,
Thursday, July 30, 2009
They talked about doing a sirjury to make my twomore smaller and then freezing the tishoe. I think I will like having something cold on my tush because I am a siberian husky and I like cold stuff.
They also said something about going to Colorado State to have something called raydiayshun. Mommy said she couldn't stay with me there so I don't know for sure who will be there with me. I hope it's not scary. By the way, what's with all these big words, don't they know I'm a dog and don't spell so good?
Anyway, mommy cried a lot and I felt sad for her. She says I'm her baby and that she loves me more than anything and I hope that she knows I love her too. Her and my other mommy, Janice.
So, they said that they would call mommy and tell her what the dr in Colorado says and then we'll go from there (wait, where are we going?)
I hope you all know I'm being a very brave boy and I'm not feeling any pain or feeling sick. I am playful and giving my mommy a lot of kisses since she seems so sad lately. Plus, those tears are salty and I like that.
Hugs and drool as always,
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Well, turns out the radiologist is on the West coast and at about 8:45 Dr Teter called with the news. The shadow she saw was NOT a tumor!!!!!!!!!!! I was crying hysterically at this revelation. I think this is the first breath I've taken in almost a week. What this means is that we can move forward with the surgery consults and while he may be missing a tail, he'll still live for many more years and will be able to receive sweet kisses of love from me.
I have cried so many tears of fear and hate towards this ugly disease and now we have a chance at a happy ending. I know we're not done with our battle, but at least we now have the upper hand. UNLESS the surgeons say they can't do the procedure, we can look forward to happier days. Oh, if they say that they can't do it, we'll find someone who says that they can.
I would like to thank all of you for your support during this chaos. Janice, you don't even know how much I lean on you for support. Your dedication to this furbaby and your continual friendship and care has meant the world to me. I hope you know that you are loved by both Kelsey and myself more than anything. You are my rock and I am so glad to have met you and for the bond that we have had because of our fluffy white boy. I know you love him as much as I do and I take comfort in the fact that you've remained in his life all these years.
To all of our friends in the blog, THANK YOU for your prayers and warm wishes. We look forward to the many blogs that we can share with you and we will update you as this progresses until he is healthy and cancer free.
All of our love to you all,
Cody and Kelsey
In the hopes of clear x-rays, I've already scheduled two consultations with different surgeons (one of which is the doctor that Janice uses for her furbabies) and she'll be joining us for that consult tomorrow.
I've also found a local vet that uses a holistic approach in the event that the news is bad. She works on boosting immunity to help their bodies fight off the cancer and, while it doesn't cure it, it hopefully will give him more time.
I'm learning that I'm not the strong woman that I thought I was and that just one word (malignant) was enough to shut down my brain and drop me to my knees. I don't remember a lot of what was said last night with the doctor. I just remember malignant and stage 2.
We take these critters in and hope to find love and companionship. What we don't realize is that they're only on loan from God to enrich our lives. They teach us that love is truly the strongest emotion and that sloppy puppy kisses are actually not gross, but are wonderful gifts and I hope to receive more years of them from Kelsey.
I can't thank all of you enough for being here for me. I find comfort in your words and know that each of you loves your puppies (and honorary husky cat) more than anything. It is a wonderful feeling to have you in our lives and I feel blessed.
Ok, more tears are flowing, so I'm going to sign out, take a short nap with Kelsey, and prepare for the consultation at 4:30. Please God, I beg of you, let it be ok.
She said we have options. We can do nothing and just let him live out what time he has left or we can choose to do surgery. Before making any decisions though, we have to go in for a chest x-ray to see if it's spread already. If it has, we can't really do anything. If it hasn't we can go for a consult with the K State surgeon here in Omaha.
Either way, it's not good. She's not even sure if the tumor can safely be removed because it's so close to his spinal cord.
So, not such good news. I will know more tonight after the chest x-ray. I wanted the answer so bad, and now that it's the answer I didn't want, I would rather not have it. I'm numb and I'm scared. I just want him to be ok, but I know that his time is limited with this ugly disease so I'm going to spoil him rotten and kiss and hug him more than ever.
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
I don't know why she's upset, but she hasn't stopped touching me and kissing me and telling me how much she loves me since last week! What's wrong with the momma?
Anyway, she is going to call my vetrunaryan in the morning since they haven't called her. Is that some kind of howl? You know, when they call each other? Do they woooo?
Talk to you all soon (I'm ok. Just got a lump on my butt. I'm still playful and happy though)
Hugs and drool,
Sunday, July 26, 2009
I can't keep my hands off of him either. I cuddle with him a lot as it is, but these past few days I find that I just can't bear to be too far away from him. I just can't imagine how I'll feel if we find out it is cancer. I know my life, and his, will change forever. I'll let you know what we find out. I hope that we get good news. I'm sure it'll be another sleepless night with the anxiety that I'm feeling.
Please say a prayer for us. We could use it.
Hugs to all of the furry babies out there and their humans.
Friday, July 24, 2009
We were bleeding all over the place and rushed to the hospital to see if he'd ripped a stitch. He had two spots where the skin kinda puckered and created small openings. A bit of lidocaine and two stitches later, we're back to being all sealed up.
I'm going to get some pictures on here (for those of you who aren't queasy) and you can see that when I say it's huge, I'm not telling a tale.
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Today he had surgery to get answers and the answer is a tumor. This is a large tumor (tennis ball or softball in size) and seems to be a tissue tumor and if it comes back cancerous, it'll probably mean amputation of the fluffy tail because it's pretty deep in the tissues.
On the positive side, she didn't see any weird cells during the two attempts at draining it and she didn't today either, but she's just not sure and was concerned about it. We're sending the biopsy next day air so they'll have it tomorrow and we should have an answer by Monday.
I'm hoping that either A. It's non cancerous and he'll just have a large lump on his butt or B. if it is cancerous, they can get it all and if that means he's a husky with no tail, then that's what it means.
Wish us luck!
Cody (owned by Kelsey and Smokey)
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
So, I guess I will keep you posted bout my nose and the weather. I'm hoping for more snow because mine almost all melted yesterday. I'm kinda bummed. I didn't feel like playing in it so much because I didn't feel that good. I guess there's always next winter.
Hugs and drool, Kel
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
She's been sad, but I'm doing my best to keep her company. I even let her sleep on the couch with me!
Kelsey, Smokey, and Tigger (T I double guh ERRR)